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May 30 Explode week-A week worth noting-
I have been talking to different people on the same matter this week, it's great to have sharing with them and I have received various feedback.
In the past two weeks I felt like I was hitting the wall and just coudn't keep going, I was disappointed and it drained my body and mind. It's like a roller coaster ride, you had the most happiest moment and thought you were being accepted then you found out it's not the case. You took the initiative however they were not responding at all.
Gossip girls, immature thinking and talking shouldn't stop you from caring. That is a hilarious joke from Anita.
Don't push yourself into something you dislike in order to get into that circle. As it turns out, I am not the only one to experience this, Sally had this too when she switched to her current church. Moreover, the people there have known each other for more than 10 years. She reminds me that if you tried and failed at the first time, give each other another shot. Things may turn out fine (although it takes duno how much time). Hey, if you were not asking me that putting the busy work aside, I still have b&s and fellowship, I wouldn't share this with you, you know...
Another night, a great opportunity to join Sophie's cell for steam boat, and they were nice b&s. All of them were characters, not typical type of christians. I had fun, laughed a bit, talked a bit, ate a lot as well. By the way, Serena's house was a nearly 100-year-old heritage house, so elegant and cool~ When Sophie drove me home around 11, we talked in the car till 12.30am, unforgettable!!! Start something from scratch, serve in church-planting, it sounds challenging and rewarding, do I have the courage and ability to do that?
Don't think three years is long enough to make yourself familiar with them. It's not a big deal, they are b&s but God doesn't say you guys will be best friends. Be positive, there's no open strife and veiled stuggle in the fellowship which is already a good sign. People expect more from a mature christian which means you probably should give more, as a result of that you may not get much attention from what you expected. People do run away from the troublesome situation, however, is it better if you change to a new place but having the same condition? There are some examples as Kylie shared with me. How amazing that we have so much similar thoughts and experiences on this, haha, maybe it's not a good thing since it's bitter, but it really gives me strength after the night out at Gloria Jeans.
It's time to move forward... I know HIS plan is working out day by day even though I didn't see or couldn't tell... May 19 转:“玉女”张钧宁:我是带着缰绳的野马大家最近都转载网文,我都跟下风啦,哈哈
玉女,这个娱乐圈很流行的词汇曾经使一批又一批“玉女派”女星屹立潮头,她们面孔清纯、气质恬静,荧幕内外都如一副画般静静的,甚至不会吃饭不会生气。然而,当“一个个都不外如此”后,玉女成了一个讽刺的鬼脸。直到3年前,《白色巨塔》里关欣医生的扮演者张钧宁甫一出现,才以标准玉女架子和高学历、低调人品唤起大家对“玉女”、“气质美女”的记忆。
玉女很倔强:叛逆中学会顾虑他人
张钧宁家庭条件优越,父亲是大学教授,母亲是童书创作家,姐姐是插画家。出生在德国慕尼黑,4岁回台湾,从本科到研究生……人生简历堪称完美。这样的女生乖但沉闷?但张钧宁显然只同意前者:“从小就比较乖,很少和朋友去逛夜街什么的,只会用功读书。我真不知道为什么那么乖,可能因为大家通常都觉得漂亮的女孩子就一定不爱念书、贪玩。我就要做给你们看看。”果然是传说中的具有莫名正义感和责任感的“怪怪书女”。“ 从小我的个性就很木讷,上台讲话都会很紧张。但我也以自己为主,认为自己的感受最真切,不会想到别人的感受。进入礼仪队让我学会顾虑他人的感受和沟通的重要性。我当队长时,队员要是没来练习,我会很生气,一直唠叨。但后来我发现,当你不开心而没有讲清楚原因,别人只会觉得你情绪化、脾气不好等。我第一次深刻感觉到,沟通是这么重要的一件事。了解别人的感受,也是有意义的。”
玉女很自我:大家都做却不跟风
要升大四时,周遭的同学们都在讨论该去哪家补习班补习考研,但当时我都没有想考的意思,所以跟他们有些格格不入。我并不想因为大家都这样做,就也跟著去做,人生那么长,花一年去好好想清楚自己真正想做的事,总比之后的人生都浪费掉来的好吧。”和大多数学生艺人干脆暂时放弃学业,呈无限休学状态不同,张钧宁一边背剧本一边准备期末考试,好不容易挨到毕业。在旁人以为她一心要挤进星光熠熠的娱乐圈时,她毅然决定继续读研究生。在读研时,她开始拍《白色巨塔》,杀青后大家以为她会利用这宝贵的段空档好好写硕士论文,但她又跑去报名参加“传播领袖营”。
玉女很理性:入行才发掘感性面
过去的张钧宁不懂得变通,太在乎自己表现,对别人要求严格,常让合作的人很辛苦。即使对于内地观众赞赏的角色关欣,她也自言“不够沉稳,说话方式和表情应该要更专业性、有说服力。”她回忆,“后来我发现表演改变自己很多,包括跟人的相处方式、观察力、感官这部分。我小时候就不是一个很敏感的小孩,对很多事情都比较没有感觉或后知后觉。但是理性的人不代表没有感性,只是用压抑的方式隐藏起来,我演戏后变得比较敏感,比较容易感觉到别人的感觉,我现在演戏比较容易释放,也没有那么在意批评。”
玉女很害羞:暗恋时只敢偷看
张钧宁透露即使是现在的自己也不敢轻易和别人表白:“暗恋别人的时候很没用,只敢偷偷在旁边看,最多会用暗示的方式让他感觉到我喜欢他,比如默默地约他跟大家一起去玩,买东西的时候也帮他买一份。但对方感觉不到我就会闪人。”
May 15 五月,財政預算勞動月
五月已經差唔多過咗一半,一直想冩既BK終于出爐,噔噔噔噔,哈哈哈哈 ^@@^ 每一個月既第一個禮拜五晚都係團契既祈禱會,大家放工放學之後就一齊食飯喺教會同心禱告,我哋每一日既步伐都好匆忙,而我哋可以安靜我哋既心去同神傾偈實在係一件好美好既事。完咗,大家仲討論緊聽晚BBQ既安排,Felix突然對我嗌,“Nicole,聽日妳都係要坐我哋既car boot去度Strathfield啦,哈哈!”交通,令人頭痛既安排。 禮拜六番工,因爲North Shore第二個學期第一日,所以其實都好忙,見度熟悉既面孔,亦有新生報到。最可愛既係一個daddy帯住個仔來,咩住個仔既書包,手度揸住盒KFC,仲要話,“Sorry,we are late。”先搞笑。6點準時走,去度city買埋個蛋糕都已經6點8、9,好彩Freddy&Paul來pick up我,咁去度Hunters Hill果度都係7點半未度,不過天都黑曬,仲要一去度,Donald就話,"Kylie, 真係俾你個烏鴉口講中,Nicole來都未有野食啊..." 佢哋6點幾來透爐透度而傢都未燒度,而個天就開始行雷閃電,我哋究竟可唔可以赶喺落雨之前食度野呢?我哋快D定落雨快D呢?好緊張既時候,有人慘叫:“哎呀,唔見D腸喔,燒野食點可以無腸呢?!”Then Haymon&Felix佢哋就揸車番屋企攞,不過佢哋走咗無幾耐既同時我哋終于可以開始燒丸,牛扒,豬扒。但係燒燒下,有雨滴落來,繼續行雷閃電,大家都無出聲。Chung終于開聲,“如果落雨我哋有無Plan B?”跟住開始落雨,有帽既帯帽,有遮既開遮,我哋真係擔遮燒烤。重點係雨勢無絲毫既减弱,仲越落越大,有人慶幸食咗幾粒丸,而我既牛扒就未等度熟果一個moment,8點幾我哋20個人終于决定撤退,開始執野,滅火,擔凳番D車度,轉移陣地去附近可以容納我哋咁多人既Paul's home煎扒食啦!成9點我哋好狼狽地去度提供場地既一個弟兄既豪宅,大家開始用吹風機、熨斗幫自己煖身,而小厨神就開始霸占厨房。出品真係非常有水平,定因爲我哋大家都餓過饑,所以每上一樣野都好快就清晒,不過沙爹鶏扒、咖喱鶏扒、蜜汁豬扒真係好好味啊!~ 食完supper仲有dessert,我哋準備既神秘蛋糕,幫Adrian, Kylie&Zoe慶祝生日。最後仲玩埋捉伊因,非常經典既厨房D橱櫃入邊、洗手盤下邊、門既後邊,真係非常crazy,玩度11點7、8先大隊人馬撤退。番度屋企都12點半左右,沖凉搞下聽日大組要報告既Prayer Partner訓覺已經係2點既事。 禮拜日竟然7點就醒咗,點解唔俾我訓耐D啊!!!準時番度教會,大組都好順利,見度尋晚有D人無番或者遲到,哎呀,千祈唔好俾人知啊。跟住崇拜,食飯,成基,完晒1點半多D,我哋小組今日gathering,而D學生話去做功課遲D去阿Fie度所以我就同Freddy去買餸。2點幾3點去度Eastwood都好多人買餸,我哋照住張清單買野,所以都無用太多時間,3點8就去度阿Fie屋企。Yeah,可以玩Wii Fit,竟然磅完我體重話我underweight@@,而平衡重心就靠右邊傾。玩咗D高難度既真係好唔得,真係要做多D運動先得啦。5點度Kobe車埋Cathy&Yano來,大家一齊玩Mario Kart,更加發現自己玩呢D揸車游戲好渣><!!! 6點,我哋開始有sharing既時間,發現我哋每一個個體真係好唔一樣,好感嘆神既創造。7點,Ewing同Kevin仲有Ashley BB都來埋,可以開始打邊爐啦。希望我哋呢個小組今年會有成長既空間,當然亦都希望會有一齊玩既時光啦,哈哈哈哈。又有神秘蛋糕食,補祝番Cathy同Yano4月底既生日,個蛋糕仲要係Kevin手車既助力D cream都移晒位,勁啊!番度屋企11點半,早D訓啦,今日先訓咗5粒鍾既我,聽日就知死啦-__________- Monday,嚴重瞌睡症,打晒喊路,唔可以集中精神做野,所以晚黑9點就上床了。Tuesday,唸住可以赶番D進度,老細突然話:“我哋禮拜四去Port Macquarie,禮拜五番,你ok嗎?”晚黑,Iva 11點打電話來約我聽日食飯去CBC聽個培靈會,ok。Wednesday晚黑食飯,聽咗個基督徒喺金融海嘯裏邊既反思talk,都幾有意思不過10點半先番度屋企,執聽日出trip既野就真係…… Thursday, 8點既早機所以6點半就起身,去度機場過咗關老細就打電話來問我喺邊,我連逛下機場既時間都無。9點9去度開始做野,忙度無lunch食,5點幾我話今晚係late night shopping喔,咁我咪可以去行下街囉,老細就勉强放人。點知Port Macquarie既late night shopping係6點半咁解=.= 最享受既係我既晚餐,其實今日就係一餐,可憐啊。我就去咗食意大利野仲有我既energy drink - chocolate milkshake, yum~ 番度我哋間boutique motel已經8點,開住電視就訓著。第二日起身,望住出面個海,真係心曠神怡啊,果然Ocean View係好享受嘎。食咗個continental breakfast,又開始做野,Karen要去Brisbane所以今次上來接手D數,以後都見唔度Sashi呢只來自西伯利牙既狗狗添,等我臨走同佢影張相先。3點我嗌咗個sandwich,因爲5點幾機,番度屋企可能都7點。果不其然,番度屋企6點9,我買咗個外賣番去,俾包租婆話,“你回來啦,我以爲你拍拖去啦~”我答佢:“沒有呀,我出差啦。”聽日又要番工,但係我精神上疲累,身體上就更加疲累。所以禮拜六安安靜靜坐成日,無出去番saturday fellowship。咁就又一個禮拜。 禮拜日竟然落雨,我喺山脚行上山,身都濕,今日係母親節,我早早哋發咗個信息俾媽咪。中午教會食咖喱鶏飯,我食咗兩碟,俾人質疑:“你食咁多既?”*.* 上完成基同一班弟兄姊妹去咗睇福音電影“流浪漢世界杯”,第一次睇影音使團既戲,ok啦,無話好特別。晚黑番屋企唸住同媽咪視頻,點知佢去咗阿姨度打拖拉機。第二日番工msn見度媽咪問番佢,話我知玩度11點半先番屋企,呢D係咪真係“有其母必有其女”呢,玩得咁開心,不過佢好D因爲佢中午訓咗個飽覺。 Another Monday,老爺子無番工,因爲佢太太65歲生日;Tuesday,忙度2點先食lunch;Wednesday,老爺子5月底去oversea渡假,叫我幫佢book Israel hotel,我成功幫佢穩度good deal,平過佢travel agent俾佢既价仲要唔使俾deposit,我覺得我真係太有潜質做office all arounder啦,lol... 半夜有個無number顯示既電話打來,我hello, 佢又hello,背後係一D好吵既聲音,我hung up,佢又打來。禮拜五,期待周末既到來,點知一番工老爺子就將佢tax return所有野交俾我,仲要做份occupancy report俾TM,話時話,TM個仔月尾17歲生日,佢呢個24孝老豆要買部車送俾個仔,就打電話問dealer咩車安全D,個dealer竟然話Corolla好過Golf…… Anyway,工作就算幾充實但係一個人既生活仍然要繼續過既。 |
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